WTF?

Okay- so, I've been working out pretty steadily for about two and a half weeks now- weights and cardio. So, why in God's holy name are all my pants tighter. Seriously, I about died. My love handles are hanging over shorts that weren't even tight two weeks ago. What is happening? And why did God choose me to try sick experiments on? I'm trying to get THINNER! Ugh. This certainly is not the motivating factor that I needed. As if I don't have enough against me as it is! I have little time; I am afraid to get sweat on the machines; Exercise is just unattractive. I mean, does anyone look good doing squats? Does anyone's ass look good in the mirror upside down when they are doing hip lifts? And now, on top of all of these obstacles, I've got to deal with getting bigger on top of it.

Lauriann? Brig? Help me out here. Tell me there's hope. Tell me that I will get smaller and SOON. I won't have anything to wear if I don't get smaller soon.

In other news, today is Wednesday which means it's veggie day! We've got corn, potatoes, peppers, onions, squash, eggplant, beans, tomatoes, garlic, swiss chard, and WATERMELON! That's should be sweet! No cucumbers. Hmmm. Haven't gotten any new recipes lately.

Hawkins is developing admirably. He's sitting up now, eating a cheerio like food, and we're just now starting him on the sippy cup. He understands the concept, but doesn't use it very well on his own yet. Sometimes I look in his crib and he looks like this big farmer kid raised on the land and fed meat and potatoes each day, and sometimes he looks like a little baby, innocent and fragile. He really likes to grab faces now and I love it. He'll raise his tiny hands and put them on each cheek and just hold your face. Then he tries to pull your face close to his as if he wanted to kiss you. It's very sweet until he grabs my hair and holds on with his death grip while I have my head turned up upside down and begin to lose consciousness from the pain.

Since I'm on the subject of hair I will update you on gross ball of hair on the sidewalk. It was actually on the sidewalk this morning. Someone's been messing around with it, apparently, because there hasn't been any wind. It looked like it had moved about a foot. Whose hair is it?